Clock

it was 3.26 pm.
and I received a message

Mus: pagi hani
Me: petang mus. awal bangun?
Mus:oh.petang.haha

it was a funny moment.lol.

Twinkle twinkle

In my dream:
I have a boyfriend who uses proper spelling and good in English.
I score 3.5 and above for every semester.
I study in a foreign university.
I have lots of money.
I handle assignments well.

Like I said, in my dream.
These only happen in my dreams.
darn, i feel so pathetic :(

How do you sparkle?

Actually the title has nothing to do with what I'm gonna write.
But who cares, it sounds great and I like it :)
I've been neglecting my blog for quite a long time.
I still come online everyday, and log in to blogger every night.
But I just couldn't bring myself to carve a few words here.
Stress is piling up I suppose.

I find that by looking at beautiful and unique pictures do release my stress.
I've been spending my nights with viewing all sort of pictures.
Once, I was looking at the pictures of bedrooms for two hours non-stop.
Weird huh.
There are few websites filled with amazing photos.
These are my favourites :

weheartit
picship

exploring through tumblr and flickr also do remove the emptiness,messiness,loneliness bla bla.
It's a good hobby btw, The colours will stimulate your brain to think,
and the pictures will widen your idea and visualization, as well as providing you with new knowledge.
It's fun, try it :)

Ohhoii!

It has been a while since I last blogged.
Because things were up and down for the last few weeks.
Dumped someone, indirectly dumped by someone.
Stress,pressure,tension.
If I try to write something during that time, I would definitely end up cursing and emoing instead of writing.
So, I decided to stay on hiatus for a mean time.
But now I'm back!
Things have gotten better I guess.
Biasa la, lepas hujan baru ada rainbow kan :)

I'm done with my japanese test!
Well, it was the first test and few tests are waiting but still I felt relieved.
Alhamdulillah, I answered most of the questions.
And I managed to memorized Hiragana!
Yeay for me :)
Our Mika sensee was in Japan for a week and she brought us back a type of food.
We supposed to take one only but I took two.
Gomenne Mika sensee :(( *makes kawaii face*

I'm proud to say that I can read the words in the middle :)

I'm done with my SIEP presentation too.
Fuhh, the presentation went smoothly, even though I only prepared six slides, while other had minimum six slide.
But quantity is not important rite, the quality is :D

And now, I've to concentrate on Logistics maybe.
And Larian Amal Palestin is coming up.
Wooooo, busykan diri :)

ooo yeah! I'll be home by 4th!
Rindu semua!
First mission:
Kidnap Sherlene and xplore the new One Utama :)))))))))))
The best shopping mall in Malaysia <3

smell like a vampire

: I donated blood today! I feel so useful and I wish my blood will be used up by a very handsome guy XD

oh, I wouldn't mind if a sexy vampire wanna steal it and suck it till the bag gone dry 

: Hemoglobin sounds like homosexual goblin to me

:I realized that when one of my course mate got into trouble, the trouble they got into always has something to do with sex

:I think my course is full with sex maniacs -.-

Am I too boyish to be loved?
Am I too childish to be loved?
Am I too insane to be loved?
Am I too fat to be loved?
Am I too ugly-skin to be loved?

Am I?
Am I?

Speed of light

I didn't plan for this.
After what had happened, I should have stay clean for awhile.
But, it's uncontrollable okay.
Technically, the love feeling have stopped lingering in me since in the middle of my four months break.
Wait, I'm not sure whether it was love feeling or what.
Ugh, I don't know. I didn't know.
But what I know now,
I will have butterflies fly in my stomach everytime I see him.
Hooooooo...
Just bertepuk sebelah tangan.
Never mind la, he doesn't put up any sign 'please don't like me'
So, I'm free to go drool over him kan?
To him, I'm just an insane friend.
But to me, you're a err, nice guy and I have crush on you?
This is not love at a first sight.
I have known him for almost a year.
And I've been feeling this feeling after a week I came back here.
Aiyo, why so sudden?

LOL

hani, please keep quiet.




p/s: let's go eye-wash in tutti frutti kb xP

A deathliest truth

I'm single but I don't really feel alone because I have:
A bunch of wonderful friends
A bunch of storybooks (technically I only have two with me which I brought from home but I can always borrow :) )
An Ipod with loads of awesome applications
A laptop loaded with dramas/movies/mvs/whatsoever you name it
Classes and activities in university.
see, my life is kinda busy so I don't think I'll be able to spare time for love.
But but,

My bestfriend wrote this, and it got me thinking.
And realizing,
And admitting the truth.
Honestly, sometimes I do feel lonely.
Even though I have friends around me for 24/7, but I can still feel that a slot in my heart is kinda empty.
LOL, damn jiwang but yeah, this is just the truth.
Come on la, I'm already 21 years damn freaking old,
my last relationship was almost three years ago.
A serious relationship? The ugly truth is, I never had one.
See, I feel like I'm the most pathetic girl in the world.
*a deep sigh*
I long for a cuddle when I'm sad
I want my hands to be held
I want to feel secure in your embrace
I want the extra attention which I won't get from my parents.
I want someone whom I can shower with love, because I have too much love in myself and cats don't really need much love from me -.-

I think I'm over-picky, so that's why I'm still on my own until today.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for a perfect person,
I just want someone who understands me, makes me happy, and bla bla.
Someone whom I feel comfortable with.
Someone whom I can easily get along with.
When I see that person, he makes me grin from ear to ear.
Hurm hurm hurm
I do love Jaejoong but this is reality, I know i can never have him.
I don't need a boyfriend, I just need a future husband
*horny laughs*




p/s:Let's get a gigantic teddy bear xoxo

I am obsessed with you

I'm seriously obsessed with him,
well, in a good way :)
Sometimes I think he is the reason why I'm still single, because I just haven't met anyone like him.
Maybe some ppl will say 'ah, this girl is just having a normal stupid crush on korean boys bla bla'
but omg trust me, I really adore this guy.

He made me pierce for idontrememberhowmanytimes but only three piercing remain until today. Few more piercing are coming :)

Plus, he's not just an ordinary korean artist who people go drooling over his good look only.
He's a song writer, he's an actor, he's a wonderful singer, and he also directing JYJ world tour. WORLD tour okay, not just a mini tour!

And his words and answers are always deep and meaningful.

Just read the interview above, and please judge him through his wonderful words:

JAEJOONG SPEAKS OUT AGAINTS SUICIDE

Q. “Did you ever think about suicide?”

“I felt sad and upset for the people that had to leave this world in such a manner. Suicide is something that hurts so many people and I think that it just shouldn’t ever happen.”

Q. “You went through a lot of hardships yourself. What was the most painful for you, and how did you overcome it?”

“Every person feels loneliness and is met with a hardship that’s hard to endure. While living life, there are, of course, weights that you feel are only weighing down on you. It’s not a matter of how good or bad the environment you’re living in is, but rather a sort of misery that every person experiences while living life. IN that regards, I, too, have experienced much sadness and loneliness, and the way I overcame those feelings was to love the world I’m living in and think preciously of my work, my loving members, and my family. I also earn strength from my fans. I plan on thanking every day I live for in the future as well.”

Q. “How do you feel hearing about fellow celebrities committing suicide?”

“It was just shocking and an unbelievable reality. I was upset.”

Q. “Do you know any celebrities that are going through depression?”

“I don’t know. They say that depression isn’t something shown on the outside, as people that are depressed as usually bright on the outside and feel depressed when they’re alone. Instead of people that say outright, ‘I’m lonely’, I think it’s more important to care for those that are trying harder than normal to look positive. And as the oldest hyung, I think more than anything, I should be responsible for the psychological health of my members more so than other celebrities.”

Q. “If you were to ever have a fan that was thinking of suicide, what would you say?”

“I believe that our fans won’t think of suicide because I feel that if they listen to our songs, they’ll feel too happy and that their depression will disappear. In our recent album release, there are two songs titled ‘A Boy’s Letter’ and ‘You’re’. They’re both songs written for our fans so we hope that they’ll listen to them when they’re feeling depressed or lonely and hopefully feel consoled. We’re together inside of our music. Please also think of the precious people in your lives and be happy for even the smallest of things. With such a mindset, I’m sure that you’ll feel more affectionate towards your life. The beautiful sky, your mother’s delicious food, and your pet’s cute aegyo are all wonderful things in life.”

Q. “What do you think society needs to do in order to prevent suicide?”

“I think as we go on in our society, people feel more alone than ever. They begin to box themselves up and are afraid of other people coming in their zone. The world keeps making people depend on only themselves and promotes competition amongst one another, but people think that’s what success is so they follow it while losing their freedom and deepening their depression. I hope that we’ll change the atmosphere so that we can prevent such a society.”

Q. “Do you have anything to say to those that are suffering to the point of thinking about suicide?”

“Think of hope the minute you feel miserable with your life. Take up the habit of finding joy in the smallest of things in life. The misery you feel now will be a strong foundation for your future and you will become someone with an invaluable life. Also, hold the hand of the person next to you. Don’t think that you’re the only one living in this world. Don’t grow your sorrow on your own and ask for help from the person next to you.”

Source + Photos: TV Report via Naver, ELLE

Credits: Allkpop

Shared by: DBSKnights

And also a video specially made for him by his wonderful fans. The video contains some of his wonderful quotes <3



This is why I care about him so much,
This is why I adore him so much.
He's a good example, he inspires me a lot through his word and his actions.
well, minus the piercing part and drunk-driving la xD

I adore you. 

I love you.

Let's fly to Korea and have sex with him <3

English

UMK's Pesta Konvo located in Bachok was held form 16th-19th of this month,
I volunteered myself to help with Sekretariat Rukun Negara drinks stall, along with Pqa and Farah.
The place was hot and we were sweating like we were sitting in a sauna -.-
But we got to drink all types of the drinks sold in our stall awesome, probably more than enough to replace our body fluid which have lost due to excessive amount of sweat.

Lots of stall were there. And lots of competition were held.
There was a guy selling a medium that romours can improve English.
Just subscribe and pay around RM2000. yeah, RM2000 just to learn English.
And he said by reading english articles and listening to english song will NEVER improve your English.
-.-
The stupidest salesman I ever met. I can see that you're too desperate to get a customer.

Back in 2007, I couldn't even read an English article loudly, I would have needed few days to write a damn English essay.
Everyone in class knew I was a loser in English subject, even the English teacher didn't like me because I'm too quiet.
I used to hate English class, during my primary school and secondary school.
But in 2008, I entered form six and majority of the students are non malay.
And the year I fell in love with a non malay guy. ugh.
OMG I feel like puking now,
even though I hate him now, but he was the reason why my English has gotten better.
Well, not so good but okay okay lor
We texted in English, I read every single posts on his blog which are all written in English.
He's English is so good, trust me.
I learn English thru these two activities :)
Oh don't forget to Kpop world which has been a major help until now :D

Di mana ada kemahuan , di situ ada jalan.
So, don't say to me ' kau english bagus senangla'
I've been in your place, and it's up to you to stay under the coconut shell or take a peak what is outside the coconut shell offers you :)

My english is still bad, I know.





Let's read a book :)

Gotcha!

I finally own this item :)
As I was working for almost three months, I used up my second month salary to purchase this.
I've been eyeing for this stuff since last year, was planning to buy it last year but I spent my money on other unimportant stuff.
Afraid of repeating the same mistake, I quickly grab it once I got my salary :)

YES
I had to work in order to get this. It is more satisfying when I buy something using my own hard-earned money.
Not like few faggots who gets money by begging like beggars, then bought expensive items to be shown off to everyone especially on their stupid blogs.
How stupid they are.
Others are working so hard,
but look at these kind of rotten people,
asking money from other people. How easy your life is.
Hell yeah, Today is your day. Tomorrow might be not.
I hate you and your family for troubling my dad and my aunt.
I hate you and your family, forever will.




Let's chop heads off :)

Cuti cuti Malaysia

Since I'm no longer working and I still have few days before going back to the heh uni, I went to Telok Chempedak, holiday-ing with my beloved cousins <3

Photoshooting by the beach was fun :) even though we were sweating like hell and the weather was freaking hot AND we were fasting!

We are so cool because we managed to fast for the whole day even though only GOD knows how desperate we were for a glass of water xp

Let's hug and smooch xp

Double shock

I've been in very moody mood for the entire day, blame the pms -.- I always thought that someone must control their mood swing during pms but the truth is, it is uncontrollable.
So today, I received two shocking surprises: a happy surprise first, a sad surprise second that later made my mood in a worst state.

The first surprise is:
I received a call from a friend whom I thought he was dead, eaten by a seahorse.
He's the weirdest friend so far, and I love him. We haven't met for so long! A year maybe. And the last time he texted me was on my 21st birthday.
See, so long edi you never chat with me -.-
I love how he always curse his own race and other races, and his ability in using the F word in his every single sentences. He's really unique, one in a million. Talking to him trigger me to join him cursing. I cursed and it was fun :)
Yeay, gonna reunite with him soon!

The second surprise:
Well, this is a sad one. A friend is leaving UMK for an unavoidable reason.
Like omaigod, he's among the person I look up whenever I have big problems,
The person who always have the right words to comfort me,
The person who always stand by me and listen to my problems.
The person who always harassed me.
I'm still in shock, I didn't expect this kind of thing will happen.
But, this is reality, people come and go, but the memories will make sure the bond between us stay strong.
Good luck buddy, make sure you get the course you applied for.
You will be missed :D

These really affect my mood. The emotions are mixed up. Being a woman is not easy. Complicated.
I hate pms -.- pfft.

A very big hug :(

A silent comeback

My previous blog lasted only for few months :P
It was fun at first, but I started to blog bout my anger instead of proper topics to be blog about.
It was getting out of control.
The second reason, I suck at writing. My story is always boring. I'm not a poetic person. I'm just plain boring.
So, I decided to delete it.
Only few realized bout the death of my blog, heh, pathetic rite.
But somehow, I miss blogging.
I miss expressing the feelings that I can't speak out to the world,
which I prefer to express them in words.
Ew, sound soppy but this is me, a coward hiding in a macho man shell :)

I know I don't have a zillion readers, but I don't mind :)
I blog , I read.
But this time, I will try my very best not to
# get too emotional
# publicize my blog

Lets hug and kiss XD